8 weeks

8 weeks pregnant with twins. Whoa. It's crazy even to type those words! I am slowly getting used to the idea of TWO more kids. I am so excited, although I'm feeling like garbage. I can't complain though. I know how luck I am and my cup truly runneth over.

Now the worrying begins. I hope to carry to term. I hope that they are ok. I hope that I'm ok. I hope that we can all go home together.

Hope hope hope. It's what got me to this point and will keep me going. I am so grateful.

seeing double

It's been a few days now and I've had time for the news to sink in. Part of me is over the moon, and part of me is crapping my pants. TWINS! Ack! Having gone through infertility and miscarriages, no matter how unexpected it is, I can't help but feel blessed at the fact that we have two beating hearts. It is still early so we don't know what will happen, but for now, I am gearing up for one hell of a ride!

a heart beats, and so does another one...

ultrasound today. two babies. holy f$ck. this was not the plan. will need time to process.

5.5 weeks pregnant

Assuming that all is well, I am 5.5 weeks pregnant. Until today, I was feeling fine - hungry with sore boobs, and a little bit of insomnia, but nothing terrible. Today, I feel like I've been hit by a truck. I slept all morning, and still feel terrible. It is very reassuring, and I hope that it is a good sign that all is well. I was hoping that I wouldn't start feeling tired and lousy until after 6 weeks, but I will take it as it comes if it means that I can have a healthy pregnancy and baby.

Ultrasound in 5 days!