Fingers crossed

So on cycle day 10, 11, 12, 13 I went to the clinic (partner and son in tow). Blood test, ultrasound, blood test, ultrasound, etc.  Finally, the surge happened (on a Friday!) so we trekked through a blizzard to get to the clinic for Saturday's insemination, and ended up being convinced to come back for insemination #2 on Sunday.

We have a good feeling about this one!  Had a great acupuncture treatment yesterday and now, the wait is on.

Fingers crossed...

Cycle 2, Day 10

So finally, on Jan 2, my period came it instead of being at the end of a weird non-pregnancy, I was finally on Day 1!  Horray!

We went in on day 3 and everything looked good.  We didn't plan to go in until day 10 but on day 8 I felt some weird cramping so I called the clinic and they had me come in for blood and ultrasound just in case.  (Was no ovulating)  So now we're at the stage where we go every day until go-time.

I had 2 acupuncture treatments and will have another one in a couple of days.  Not as many as last month, but it just gets to be a bit much with all the appointments!

Oh, today I told my doctor that I wouldn't be taking the HCG shot again because it made me feel so sick last month.  He said it would mean that I need two inseminations and when I pointed out that my son was conceived with no HCG and one insemination, his response was "well that was just luck".  Actually, it was me being very lucky and knowing exactly when I surge, so I can time the IUI accordingly.  Ugh.  Doctors are great, but they only know what they know.  I'll go with my instincts thanks very much!  Fingers crossed...

Waiting...

New year's eve - another blood test - another weird result.  With no pregnancy signs and a bit of spotting, I was expecting the test to come back showing less or no HCG.  Instead, the HCG was 8 (up from 7).  This is not a viable pregnancy (not really a pregnancy at all) but I am still in this weird place while I wait for my period, and the final resolution of this almost-pregnancy.  I don't feel like it's a miscarriage, but I think it's all about perspective.

This is not unlike what happened to me before, the time I refer to as my second miscarriage. (HCG got to 35 that time)  Now that I've had a full-term pregnancy, it seems a lot less significant to have a fertilized egg implant but not multiply in my uterus somewhere.  This is so minute and I knew that this was a no-go all along, so I don't really feel that I've lost anything.

To be honest, since it's not going to work out, I am grateful that my body took care of it now rather than letting it carry on and then suffering a later miscarriage.

So I'm waiting for Day 1 again, and hopefully we'll have better luck next time!  On Jan 1, I remain optimistic that we'll ring in 2012 with a new baby here or on the way...