30 1/2 weeks - The countdown is on

Something about passing the 30 week mark has made me feel like the countdown is really on. The babies are 3 pounds 10 oz each, and with every day I feel more and more confident that they will be ok. It's such a relief after so many weeks of worry that they might come too soon.

I feel like I am full-term and when I got to this point last time, I really was full term and within days delivered my son. This time it's not so simple. I still have up to 7 weeks left to go! I am grateful that the babies are safely inside, but man, this really does suck for me. Indigestion, aches, insomnia, fatigue - nothing totally crazy but a whole bunch of constant, annoying little ailments that make me feel like an old lady. I try to focus on the most important thing (healthy babies) but as things get harder and harder, it's hard not to feel a little bit sorry for myself.

I have reduced my hours at work and am now down to 3 days per week. It's going well, but even with the reduced work week I don't see myself going for too much longer. Every week it gets about 100% harder to do normal things like go to work. I am surprised and frustrated by how limited I am, but again, with my eye on the prize I don't want to take any chances.

Now, if only I can get the babies to flip so that I won't need a c-section.

28 1/2 weeks - It's been a BIG week

So d-day is less than 10 weeks away. In the past few months, we've moved our son into the room that we thought would be our guest room forever, we traded in the practical, fuel efficient car that we carefully chose when we had our first son (planning on 2 babies) for a minivan, and we've acquired a room full of carseats, bouncy chairs, basinettes, and baby clothes from friends and family who have been so generous. Just need some diapers and wipes, and we are all set for babies.

This past week (28 weeks) was really hard for me. This is the week when I really started to slow down. I can't do things that I used to do, and worst of all, I can't fully participate in my son's life in the way that I want to. That said, knowing a couple of people who both had twins at 27 weeks, I am very grateful to still have my babies inside of me - growing bigger and stronger. It's hard though.

I'm going part-time at work this week and will gradually reduce my work until I can't continue. I'm lucky to work in a place where I am accommodated, and do not take that for granted.

So I am lucky, I am frustrated, I am big, I am grateful, and I am getting my head around two babies coming into my family in the coming months.

It's been a big week!